week 13

Well for beginners my family doesn't really have get togethers unless you consider a funeral being a family get together. The only thing we really celebrate is Christmas but we are lucky if we even have one set of cousins show up. Normally every thanksgiving unlike the normal family who would eat turkey we eat meatloaf. It used to be a tradition that on Christmas we would do the white elephant gift exchange thing but now we no longer do that since my family members have been passing away it kind of just tore our family apart but for the future I would like my family to be close with my sisters family etc. I want to make sure we spend the holidays together an maybe even spend certain days together like a sunday morning going out to eat or something.

week 12

My game would be knocker which is where I have several players and I would be the coach. The trick is that you have to try to knock my sister out with a ball making her think we are playing soccer but in all reality it is not the net they are aiming for it is her  head. At practice we play as soccer so she does not know any difference and so that way the players can practice their aim but then we have secret practices that she does not know about an they practice kicking the ball at the head of a dummy.

week 11

So this definitely is not the worst advice that I ever have been given but its hard to remember the past when it comes to advice. As of right now the one think that sticks out in my mind because I am nervous right now. Is to just calm down you are causing a situation in your head that doesn't need to be created. People dont understand unless they were in my body to know what it's like to worry all the time, to overthink things. I often make the impossible thoughts become possible. I cant help it it's just who I am. I realize how ridiculous the small things are that I worry about and I wish I wasn't worrying who would want to. I am always afraid of weird small things like whether or not I am going to get a good grade, ordering at a restaurant afraid I am going to say something and sound stupid, being late to work so i have to show up a half hour early. Small things like that that a lot of people would be concerned about but don't get as anxious as I do. The biggest thing is that ever since I got into a wreck with Jordan in St Louis I always freak out now whenever there is a car behind me which is weird because we were behind the car that I wrecked into but I also get nervous when I am with a friend in the car and they get too close to someone and I will scream slow down! or stop! everyone gets so mad at me but I cant help it it comes out of my mouth so often I try to not watch but that doesn't work out too well. When I am driving sometimes I have to pull over to take a breather and that is exactly why I dont like driving, not that I am not capable but just because of issues like that that I dont want others seeing or having to explain myself because its not like I want to be the way I am all because I get a flashback often of when we wrecked in St Louis and convince myself that I just wrecked.