week 15

First off I love Christmas and the lights are my favorite part about it. I have never done anything personally crazy but I wish my family did. If I had the money I would have my yard covered and my trees outside strung with lights as well as my house. I cant recall the craziest one I have seen as to what it looked like but I know there is this one house in Washington that is covered in lights and decorations. There is also this one heading to Thornton's by taking the back roads in Metamora that has a big heart created by lights on the ground where there is this big hill off to the side of the road that I seen while with Jordan at 2 in the morning when he and I first got together and I always like going past it because it reminds me of my wonderful relationship and the lights being there just seemed like the best timing because I had first seen it when Jordan and I started dating on December 12th of 2013!

week 14

I was recruited by top secret detectives to find out the mystery to a major murder scene, I dont tell anyone about it because I feel like everything just falls apart when you tell people things that you shouldnt because it can also cause a game of telephone sometimes. This would be pretty awesome the fact I have always wanted to be a detective or a cop although the one thing holding me back is there ugly uniforms. I think its cool to be nosy and find  out about crazy stuff that goes on in this world. I sometimes enjoy like the feeling of my adrenaline rushing. I love the feeling of figuring something out like a math problem for example I am often the problem solver and can be pretty good at putting two and two together.

week 9

I dont normally watch movies often but when I do I enjoy watching christmas movies or cinderella movies. off the top of my head I can also think of another movie I like to watch which is called how to be single. I like christmas movies because I enjoy the holiday. Even though they are usually all the same in a sense that two people end up falling in love it gives me happiness seeing couples that arent in real life fall in love. As for cinderella movies I am not quite sure why I am so in love with cinderella I wish I could figure it out I love movies such as "another cinderella story" and such. How to be single is pretty good to because it just seems all to real it  reminds me of one of my friends who cant seem to figure out what she wants and etc.

week 16

During the year of 2016 I actually regained a couple few friends back not that I ever screwed them over or anything an that they hate me but sadly I got a hold of them first since they never cared to get a hold of me even though now I am not allowed to be friends with half of them because I'm stuck in a jail cell. Umm another thing I am really proud of is my weight loss. I have been on the low carb diet for quite some time now which is why often people see me with some sort of candy bar. I tarted at 173 lbs and am now at 151 lbs according to the scale this morning. I dont quite see the weight loss other than my clothes fitting better and my jeans requiring a belt. I had a great time this summer with Sarah going to the lake an getting a tan almost everyday an spending more time at the pool than the beach. I will remember the fun times Jordan and I had during the winter. On valentines day we went to Chicago where it was a blizzard on the way back with several vehicles and semis lined up on the side of the road in the ditch on the opposite side of the interstate. Jordan and I also ended up in the ditch after spending our valentines day together by going off the ramp and taking it too fast causing us to spin going up the ramp, on the sides of it was a steep ditch that led down to the woods. I guess a couple that dies together, stays together. FOREVER.

week 13

Well for beginners my family doesn't really have get togethers unless you consider a funeral being a family get together. The only thing we really celebrate is Christmas but we are lucky if we even have one set of cousins show up. Normally every thanksgiving unlike the normal family who would eat turkey we eat meatloaf. It used to be a tradition that on Christmas we would do the white elephant gift exchange thing but now we no longer do that since my family members have been passing away it kind of just tore our family apart but for the future I would like my family to be close with my sisters family etc. I want to make sure we spend the holidays together an maybe even spend certain days together like a sunday morning going out to eat or something.

week 12

My game would be knocker which is where I have several players and I would be the coach. The trick is that you have to try to knock my sister out with a ball making her think we are playing soccer but in all reality it is not the net they are aiming for it is her  head. At practice we play as soccer so she does not know any difference and so that way the players can practice their aim but then we have secret practices that she does not know about an they practice kicking the ball at the head of a dummy.

week 11

So this definitely is not the worst advice that I ever have been given but its hard to remember the past when it comes to advice. As of right now the one think that sticks out in my mind because I am nervous right now. Is to just calm down you are causing a situation in your head that doesn't need to be created. People dont understand unless they were in my body to know what it's like to worry all the time, to overthink things. I often make the impossible thoughts become possible. I cant help it it's just who I am. I realize how ridiculous the small things are that I worry about and I wish I wasn't worrying who would want to. I am always afraid of weird small things like whether or not I am going to get a good grade, ordering at a restaurant afraid I am going to say something and sound stupid, being late to work so i have to show up a half hour early. Small things like that that a lot of people would be concerned about but don't get as anxious as I do. The biggest thing is that ever since I got into a wreck with Jordan in St Louis I always freak out now whenever there is a car behind me which is weird because we were behind the car that I wrecked into but I also get nervous when I am with a friend in the car and they get too close to someone and I will scream slow down! or stop! everyone gets so mad at me but I cant help it it comes out of my mouth so often I try to not watch but that doesn't work out too well. When I am driving sometimes I have to pull over to take a breather and that is exactly why I dont like driving, not that I am not capable but just because of issues like that that I dont want others seeing or having to explain myself because its not like I want to be the way I am all because I get a flashback often of when we wrecked in St Louis and convince myself that I just wrecked.

week 10

They celebrate the holiday doing things like we do they eat candy maybe even brains who knows. They also do a lot of dancing because dancing can be cool. They spend their time putting toilet paper all over peoples houses and finding little kids to scare even though people just think its someone in a costume. The world may never know. The witches brew up a cool potion that makes all of the kids poisoned by their candy just because witches are pretty wicked evil. Also they track down my sister and scare her because almost any monster is never friendly and they decided to come join the dark side with me.

week 7

Like my sister I would want to live in the hippy era. I have not done all of my research and know very little about this time but what I envision it to be is a time of peace where they all surround themselves with nature and it seems like they listened to a lot of bands and drive around in volkswagon buses which is my dream to find a very clean VW bus. They also did alo of drugs from what I understand which no I do not do drugs but I just wonder what it would be like cause people can be funny an make idiots out of themselves when they are all drugged up but also can do really stupid things. I just wonder if it used to be legal back then an they grew up like that what made people decide that it was wrong. BTW like I said never done drugs... just curious as to why things changed!

week 6

Cinderella is my all time favorite Disney movie for some unknown reason. The only thing is I don't really remember much about the movie so excuse me if somethings may seem slightly false.. Anyway I wonder what the movie would be like told in the more perspective of the step mother. This step mother reminds me a lot of a stepmother I know other than the husband is still alive and she treats her step kids like dirt and only treats her real kids like they mean something to her. I wonder what ugly thoughts the mother has that is not revealed in the movie and where she actually thinks she is at all times. I also wonder why she decided to treat her like this when her father passed away.

week 8

Dear future child,
I want you to know that the world is what you make of it. You can choose what perspective you would like to look at the world. If you have a positive attitude you will realize that this place isn't so bad after all and that in all reality all of the good out rules the bad. I want you to know that you need to put your education first before your relationships because in order to get a good job and most likely be successful in life you need to finish with your schooling and not be worried about what your boyfriend/girlfriend may be doing. I also want to mention to not be afraid of taking a risk when it comes to telling someone something that you find important but are too scared of telling someone or trying out for a sport team but not thinking you will make it. The biggest risk in life is not taking a risk at all.

week 5

For being into art I don't doodle very much and when I do its of sunshine, hearts, lines with ribbon looking deals, and dream catchers. I don't spend very much time doodling because I am often lost in my train of thoughts until a teacher call me out to answer their question when I can't help when I start thinking I don't even realize it. Sometimes now that I think about it I tend to draw these cartoony looking faces mimicking my sisters face but I add mustaches and those sorts of ugly things to her oh so beautiful face. ;)

week 4

I currently am watching the fosters on netflix. Unfortunately season four has not came out yet an will not be out until the end of September. Since it has been awhile I cant really remember where I left off but I want to find out if Jude continues being gay and that his boyfriend comes back or if Callie goes back to jail and what happens between her and AJ. I also want to know if her and her foster brother get together in the end. Normally I would come home from work and watch netflix all day but now that I have to wait I have been cleaning the house from head to toe so maybe its a good thing that it doesnt come out until the end of september.

week 3

One time I had an excuse that I would have done my homework but a little kid I was babysitting got to it before I did. He scribbled all over it with sharpie which made me unable to read the questions. They believed me reluctantly. Another time I had a grammar packet the same as my sisters and I didnt want to do it so I copied Samms on a printer an printed it out then I took white out to all of her answers and wrote them in my own handwriting but then fell asleep before I could white out the rest. When I woke up in the morning I didnt realize that I had not finished it. When I got to school and into the classroom door at first she had not noticed my white out job until she got towards the end and noticed the answers that were not whited out. Thats when she called me over and asked me about it. My excuse was that I left my packet at school so I was just going to white out her answers and then put my own but I had fell asleep which in all reality it was just because I didnt want to have to think. She made it seem like she believed me but I still was given an F and a detention for cheating. LOL

Week 2

I seen fairies, dark angel, dragonfly, butterfly, and a person with their middle fingers up. I guess it kind of tells who I am because for starters I am that trashy girl who always flips people off, especially while driving. I really like nature an enjoy the feeling I get when I set outside on a cool day. The dark angel I am not so sure about, sometimes I can be mean I guess I don't know. Now looking at it I also see two cartoon looking things which I don't know why the fact I absolutely hate cartoons of any sort even family guy.

week 1

I wanted school to start so that way I can get my high school years over with. My biggest struggle this year is to not let my year go to crap like last year this year I am going to try my best to not care what students and faculty seem to think about me because in all honesty last year the teachers tore me down more than students did. Civics and P.e. will be easy for me because I took U.S. history last year. As for how school is so far it is pretty good, maybe I am just convincing myself that, i don't know. I think the class I am going to look forward to most is third hour study hall next semester.